Rejected

I did not get an interview with the cath lab. It was my lack of critical care experience that disqualified me.

I feel conflicting things about this rejection. I am not sure how to interpret it. Perhaps it is timing. Perhaps the manager doesn't want to work with me (I have pissed her off a few times recently...but I didn't think those instances were major). Perhaps God doesn't want me to take that career path. Perhaps I should get the critical care experience. Perhaps someone else doesn't want me on that team. Perhaps when my ego gets involved, I am doomed. As soon as I think I *am* something, I am humbled.

In one sense, I am relieved; I don't have to make a decision.

I'm not sure what to do next.