Sinking...

It's the winter, I'm sinking into the pit again.

I will keep persevering, I will keep taking my meds. I will try again to reach beyond.

I had a thought this morning about what makes me happy. A goal. I need a goal. I need a meaningful, lofty goal. I need something to work towards. I need a path to walk.

What's next? Professional? Art? Travel? Family? Education? Investment? Spiritual?

I don't know. Here are some things I have thought about.

• Professional: Another master's degree (in nursing this time).


• Professional: A new more challenging job.


• Professional: Pursue the ideas I have for developing original software


• Professional: Do I really want to teach nursing students?


• Art: Find a better singing venue than I currently have


• Art: Start a clarinet choir.


• Art: Get back into playing saxophone


• Art: Buy an alto or bass clarinet and get good at it. Find gigs.


• Travel: Plan the next international vacation.


• Family: Make one of my own.


• Education: Another degree? Really?


• Investment: Actually learn how to manage my money.


• Spiritual: More involvement in church


• Spiritual: Write spiritual literature - that is a book of devotions.

I will pray on it. I don't know where God wants me to go at this point. I need to identify one to commit to.