Here are a few happy thoughts.
When I went to the doctor on Tuesday, I didn't have to have a Pap smear. Yahoo!
I also got a new prescription for my "happy pills." I'm writing a happy posting. Coincidence??
I booked our vacation to Japan this October. We're committed now!
I haven't posted much about starting IVs lately. Why? Because I've become proficient at them. I get 50% or better. That is such a relief that they are not a big deal any more.
I visited the patient I wrote about last week, who needed the urgent open-heart surgery. She looked better - had some color in her cheeks, looked more bright-eyed. Wow.
My neighbor's lilac is blooming. It smells luscious over between the two houses.
My vegetable garden is growing. It's exciting to see baby radishes, carrots, and lettuce emerge from the soil. Miracle.
It is spring. Miracle.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
A few thoughts on Health
Today I go to the doctor. I am going for a "well woman" checkup. Women are encouraged to do this - go get a pap smear, mammogram, and crap like that. Generally, I do - I probably wouldn't have done it consistently over all the years but it was the only way to get birth control. Need a prescription. Going in once a year was a lot easier than dealing with an unintended pregnancy and parenthood.
But I digress...
My health is pretty good. I don't have any major conditions, aside from the depression which I wrote about earlier. My family history is also pretty good; many of the illnesses that run in my family are related to lifestyle. For example, my mother is diabetic, but she's also very overweight and inactive.
I have some lifestyle issues that are not so good. I am a bit on the plump side. My BMI is creeping into the "overweight" category. In the last 10 years I've put on about 10 pounds. Not awful bad, but something I do not want to continue. I eat in a rather undisciplined manner. Too much junk, too much sugar and salt. My blood pressure is creeping up.
I don't exercise enough. I don't do anything aerobic regularly.
Lately I've been tired. My theory on it is that I am dealing some depression right now. I have run out of my antidepressants. (hence, the doctor's appointment.) This is a tough time of year for me, having suffered through the bleakness of the winter. It's not warm yet in the midwest and it has been especially cool, rainy, and gray here all spring. It is also my way of escaping stress - take a nap! I nap about an hour almost every day I have off, despite getting at least 7 hours sleep the night before.
I drink a fair bit of caffeine. I'll have about 2-3 cups of coffee in the morning. I generally stop that caffeine around noon though, or I can't get to sleep. I drink a fair bit of wine.
My habits when I get home after a work day are abysmal. I have written about them in the past. It needs to change. I wonder how I'll do it?? I need to do something "nurturing" for myself when I get home from work so I don't sit like a lump in front of the TV on the couch. This is a tough one because my husband is nurtured by my sitting like a lump next to him watching TV all evening. Indeed, he should probably do something as well, but there's not much I can do to change him.
I can piss him off about it, by nagging. Ooh, fun.
I think I need a new quilting project. Some hand work that I can do while sitting like a lump, and occupy my hands instead of eating. I recently saw the new Piece o Cake designs pattern Aunt Millie's Garden. That's an ambitious project!! I like applique, but I've never attempted anything so complicated.
It might also make a good portable project to take on the plane to Japan when we go this October. :-)
But I digress...
My health is pretty good. I don't have any major conditions, aside from the depression which I wrote about earlier. My family history is also pretty good; many of the illnesses that run in my family are related to lifestyle. For example, my mother is diabetic, but she's also very overweight and inactive.
I have some lifestyle issues that are not so good. I am a bit on the plump side. My BMI is creeping into the "overweight" category. In the last 10 years I've put on about 10 pounds. Not awful bad, but something I do not want to continue. I eat in a rather undisciplined manner. Too much junk, too much sugar and salt. My blood pressure is creeping up.
I don't exercise enough. I don't do anything aerobic regularly.
Lately I've been tired. My theory on it is that I am dealing some depression right now. I have run out of my antidepressants. (hence, the doctor's appointment.) This is a tough time of year for me, having suffered through the bleakness of the winter. It's not warm yet in the midwest and it has been especially cool, rainy, and gray here all spring. It is also my way of escaping stress - take a nap! I nap about an hour almost every day I have off, despite getting at least 7 hours sleep the night before.
I drink a fair bit of caffeine. I'll have about 2-3 cups of coffee in the morning. I generally stop that caffeine around noon though, or I can't get to sleep. I drink a fair bit of wine.
My habits when I get home after a work day are abysmal. I have written about them in the past. It needs to change. I wonder how I'll do it?? I need to do something "nurturing" for myself when I get home from work so I don't sit like a lump in front of the TV on the couch. This is a tough one because my husband is nurtured by my sitting like a lump next to him watching TV all evening. Indeed, he should probably do something as well, but there's not much I can do to change him.
I can piss him off about it, by nagging. Ooh, fun.
I think I need a new quilting project. Some hand work that I can do while sitting like a lump, and occupy my hands instead of eating. I recently saw the new Piece o Cake designs pattern Aunt Millie's Garden. That's an ambitious project!! I like applique, but I've never attempted anything so complicated.
It might also make a good portable project to take on the plane to Japan when we go this October. :-)
Sunday, April 27, 2008
The Licorice Stick
On a whim, I did a search for other bloggers who have an interest in clarinet. I found many, and on another whim I replied to one (see the link to Balir's Blog in the side bar). Now I have a conversation going. This inspired me to tell my story with the clarinet and music in my life.
I started playing clarinet in grade school, and I chose the clarinet because my sister played the flute. I wanted my own instrument and didn't want to have to share. She got the shiny new instrument when she started playing. I got the used bargain-basement one. She quit within 2 years. I kept on. I still have that old Bundy, too. Actually, it's kind of a good quality instrument, for a student grade Bundy.
I goofed around with the music through elementary and middle school but I really got turned on to it in high school. I think mostly I became enthusiastic about it because it gave me a unique identity. I was "the musical one." (My sister, incidentally, was "the smart one." How can you follow that one up??) One of the kids in the clarinet section was really good and it occurred to me that maybe I could be good at it. (Jimmy Hrencewich was his name. Wonder what he's doing??) I started taking lessons from a local professional. I worked hard at it. I improved.
My first teacher was Scott Singer. I think part of the reason I was so into clarinet was his enthusiasm. That, and a powerful schoolgirl crush on him.
I tried out for region band and even all-state. Did not make all-state - I really flubbed the audition.
In college, I was not "allowed" to major in music, despite my desire to do so and despite much pleading and drama with the parents. I chose a practical major, Computer Science, and essentially lived the life of a music major when I wasn't writing code. I took almost all the freshman year music major classes and some sophomore year classes. Ear training. Sight singing. I took lessons every semester. I did juries every semester. I even had a recital my senior year. This was a Penn State, and my teacher was Dr. Smith Toulson.
When I graduated college I didn't know what to do with the music. I took lessons for a while, but it was hard to maintain interest without a group to play in. Another deterrent was that I was living in Rochester, NY at the time. You know, home of the Eastman School of Music? There was not an opportunity to be had for a good amateur. Competition from the masters students and such. I also had ego issues - I didn't want to play in "just any" group, it had to be worthy of my skills. Heh. Not too many of those around, either. Additionally, I was becoming a young woman in the social and dating scene. I was having fun elsewhere.
So I puttered around with it from about 1990 through last year. I would play from time to time at my church, when the music director would remember that I played. An offertory here, an introit there - maybe once a year. But, the music wouldn't wait. I really needed to be involved in music - it brought such joy to my life and I realized it was something I was missing in my adult life. By this time, I was living in the Raleigh, NC area. I figured that there were more opportunities for singers than clarinetists, and I joined the church choir. I wanted to improve my vocal skills so I took some voice lessons at a local college (Meredith College) with Lisbeth Carter. I did improve.
I got bored with church choir. The choir director had left and a new one came in, and he did not challenge the group. I tried out for The Concert Singers of Cary in 1999 and made it. Soprano 1! I had lots of fun with this group. Singing with a large group was sublime, and it was challenging - Latin, German, Spanish, French singing. Such fun. We made a CD, too. We sang with local symphonies, including the Christmas pops show with the North Carolina Symphony Orchestra.
When I went to nursing school in 2005, I moved to Durham. I had previously sung in their chapel, Duke Chapel, with the Concert Singers and I wondered if I could sing with the Chapel Choir? As a student, I could audition. I did, and they graciously allowed me to sing with them for the 2005-06 year. That also was a sublime, transforming experience. To sing in that space every week!! A concert every week! An audience every week! To listen to that caliber of preaching every week. I have been truly blessed.
That year we sang for an installation of a Methodist Bishop, we went to Washington DC to sing at a Methodist Church there, we did the annual Messiah performance in the Chapel for Christmas, and we sang Verdi's Requiem for the Spring concert.
When we moved here, I decided to pull out the clarinet again. When I was singing with those groups in NC, every so often we'd sing with instrumental accompaniment. I would get pangs of longing when I'd watch the clarinets. That signaled to me that I really should try to play. Additionally, my ego has deflated, now that I'm over 40. Playing anywhere is kinda cool.
My church has a small symphony that plays twice a year or so, and I signed up. I met another clarinet player there who turned out to be the principal clarinetist with the Kansas City Wind Symphony. He invited me to audition. I did. Success. I am in the second clarinet section, second chair. Given that I've taken about 15 years off from playing, that's pretty good.
I have a Buffet R13 B-flat clarinet. I purchased it used from my teacher, Scott Singer. I produce a nice tone. I have a good ear for pitch - developed in college by being a perpetual second clarinet. My fingering and tonguing techniques are good, but certainly not professional level. I achieved through hard work and persistence. I am not a 100% natural at it.
So what? It's fun. That's why I do it.
I also own an alto sax which I haven't picked up in years. I should. I should also get a bass clarinet and/or an E-flat clarinet and/or an alto clarinet, for grins. Ironically, I own my sister's flute, too. Hee hee.
I am toying with the idea of starting a clarinet choir. I bet there are enough players in the area to support a group. It would be unique, and if you've never heard a clarinet choir, it's an awesome sound. I am busy right now, though. I'd have to stop doing something, I guess, to make room for such a lofty pursuit.
So, come to the concert, already....
I started playing clarinet in grade school, and I chose the clarinet because my sister played the flute. I wanted my own instrument and didn't want to have to share. She got the shiny new instrument when she started playing. I got the used bargain-basement one. She quit within 2 years. I kept on. I still have that old Bundy, too. Actually, it's kind of a good quality instrument, for a student grade Bundy.
I goofed around with the music through elementary and middle school but I really got turned on to it in high school. I think mostly I became enthusiastic about it because it gave me a unique identity. I was "the musical one." (My sister, incidentally, was "the smart one." How can you follow that one up??) One of the kids in the clarinet section was really good and it occurred to me that maybe I could be good at it. (Jimmy Hrencewich was his name. Wonder what he's doing??) I started taking lessons from a local professional. I worked hard at it. I improved.
My first teacher was Scott Singer. I think part of the reason I was so into clarinet was his enthusiasm. That, and a powerful schoolgirl crush on him.
I tried out for region band and even all-state. Did not make all-state - I really flubbed the audition.
In college, I was not "allowed" to major in music, despite my desire to do so and despite much pleading and drama with the parents. I chose a practical major, Computer Science, and essentially lived the life of a music major when I wasn't writing code. I took almost all the freshman year music major classes and some sophomore year classes. Ear training. Sight singing. I took lessons every semester. I did juries every semester. I even had a recital my senior year. This was a Penn State, and my teacher was Dr. Smith Toulson.
When I graduated college I didn't know what to do with the music. I took lessons for a while, but it was hard to maintain interest without a group to play in. Another deterrent was that I was living in Rochester, NY at the time. You know, home of the Eastman School of Music? There was not an opportunity to be had for a good amateur. Competition from the masters students and such. I also had ego issues - I didn't want to play in "just any" group, it had to be worthy of my skills. Heh. Not too many of those around, either. Additionally, I was becoming a young woman in the social and dating scene. I was having fun elsewhere.
The Music...the music...
So I puttered around with it from about 1990 through last year. I would play from time to time at my church, when the music director would remember that I played. An offertory here, an introit there - maybe once a year. But, the music wouldn't wait. I really needed to be involved in music - it brought such joy to my life and I realized it was something I was missing in my adult life. By this time, I was living in the Raleigh, NC area. I figured that there were more opportunities for singers than clarinetists, and I joined the church choir. I wanted to improve my vocal skills so I took some voice lessons at a local college (Meredith College) with Lisbeth Carter. I did improve.
I got bored with church choir. The choir director had left and a new one came in, and he did not challenge the group. I tried out for The Concert Singers of Cary in 1999 and made it. Soprano 1! I had lots of fun with this group. Singing with a large group was sublime, and it was challenging - Latin, German, Spanish, French singing. Such fun. We made a CD, too. We sang with local symphonies, including the Christmas pops show with the North Carolina Symphony Orchestra.
When I went to nursing school in 2005, I moved to Durham. I had previously sung in their chapel, Duke Chapel, with the Concert Singers and I wondered if I could sing with the Chapel Choir? As a student, I could audition. I did, and they graciously allowed me to sing with them for the 2005-06 year. That also was a sublime, transforming experience. To sing in that space every week!! A concert every week! An audience every week! To listen to that caliber of preaching every week. I have been truly blessed.
That year we sang for an installation of a Methodist Bishop, we went to Washington DC to sing at a Methodist Church there, we did the annual Messiah performance in the Chapel for Christmas, and we sang Verdi's Requiem for the Spring concert.
Kansas City, a New Beginning
When we moved here, I decided to pull out the clarinet again. When I was singing with those groups in NC, every so often we'd sing with instrumental accompaniment. I would get pangs of longing when I'd watch the clarinets. That signaled to me that I really should try to play. Additionally, my ego has deflated, now that I'm over 40. Playing anywhere is kinda cool.
My church has a small symphony that plays twice a year or so, and I signed up. I met another clarinet player there who turned out to be the principal clarinetist with the Kansas City Wind Symphony. He invited me to audition. I did. Success. I am in the second clarinet section, second chair. Given that I've taken about 15 years off from playing, that's pretty good.
Details and Future
I have a Buffet R13 B-flat clarinet. I purchased it used from my teacher, Scott Singer. I produce a nice tone. I have a good ear for pitch - developed in college by being a perpetual second clarinet. My fingering and tonguing techniques are good, but certainly not professional level. I achieved through hard work and persistence. I am not a 100% natural at it.
So what? It's fun. That's why I do it.
I also own an alto sax which I haven't picked up in years. I should. I should also get a bass clarinet and/or an E-flat clarinet and/or an alto clarinet, for grins. Ironically, I own my sister's flute, too. Hee hee.
I am toying with the idea of starting a clarinet choir. I bet there are enough players in the area to support a group. It would be unique, and if you've never heard a clarinet choir, it's an awesome sound. I am busy right now, though. I'd have to stop doing something, I guess, to make room for such a lofty pursuit.
So, come to the concert, already....
Saturday, April 26, 2008
OMG
Oh, my God. Someone read my blog. And posted comments.
I feel excited, pleased and vulnerable all at once.
Well, if I'm going to have people over here, I suppose I'd better tidy the place up some.
To my reader, thanks. You made my day.
I feel excited, pleased and vulnerable all at once.
Well, if I'm going to have people over here, I suppose I'd better tidy the place up some.
To my reader, thanks. You made my day.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Just when you thought it was safe...
...to love your job.
Just when you started to think you knew what was going on.
Just when you thought you were pretty good.
You screw up.
This one wasn't so bad, really but I'm taking it hard. Basically, a patient came back from procedure in need of open heart surgery. Not emergent, but urgent - surgery should be scheduled first thing in the morning. So, the patient came back to me, and new orders were being written frenetically - we need a nitro drip, now. We need a Heparin drip, now. We need and ICU bed, now. The surgeons are here, now. Get a carotid duplex, now.
I focused on getting as much done for the patient as I could. Get the chart all in order before sending care off to the ICU nurse - send as many labs down as possible. Get the drips started as soon as possible.
I was wrong. I should have sent the patient to ICU as soon as the orders to transfer were there. I should have let the ICU nurse do most of that stuff. I should have done some of it, but not tried to do all of it. I should have concentrated on getting that patient to ICU. I interpreted the patients' returning to our unit as an indication that I was supposed to continue to care for her.
In my defense:
I learned, and no harm was done. I guess that's the best outcome given the situation.
I need to get over it and just learn. As I've said in a previous post, this feeling that "I have failed" is torture to me, though. A gloomy rainy day after a week of rain does not help me maintain healthy perspective, either.
Now, I will continue to be thoughtful, but I should go do some quilting.
Just when you started to think you knew what was going on.
Just when you thought you were pretty good.
You screw up.
This one wasn't so bad, really but I'm taking it hard. Basically, a patient came back from procedure in need of open heart surgery. Not emergent, but urgent - surgery should be scheduled first thing in the morning. So, the patient came back to me, and new orders were being written frenetically - we need a nitro drip, now. We need a Heparin drip, now. We need and ICU bed, now. The surgeons are here, now. Get a carotid duplex, now.
I focused on getting as much done for the patient as I could. Get the chart all in order before sending care off to the ICU nurse - send as many labs down as possible. Get the drips started as soon as possible.
I was wrong. I should have sent the patient to ICU as soon as the orders to transfer were there. I should have let the ICU nurse do most of that stuff. I should have done some of it, but not tried to do all of it. I should have concentrated on getting that patient to ICU. I interpreted the patients' returning to our unit as an indication that I was supposed to continue to care for her.
In my defense:
- The patient was stable
- No one stopped me from continuing on the path I chose.
- When all was said and done, I got the majority of orders done for the patient as quickly as humanly possible. I even got her dinner ordered.
- When it was all over, I asked for feedback. This is how I found out my priorities were misaligned.
- I probably would not have gotten that feedback if I hadn't asked. This is good. Because, next time, if I had made the same choice in a similar situation, I'd feel worse. I would have thought that I was misled this time.
I learned, and no harm was done. I guess that's the best outcome given the situation.
I need to get over it and just learn. As I've said in a previous post, this feeling that "I have failed" is torture to me, though. A gloomy rainy day after a week of rain does not help me maintain healthy perspective, either.
Now, I will continue to be thoughtful, but I should go do some quilting.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Melancholy
I am at the point where I really must come to terms with the fact that I won't be a Mom. It has hit me this week for some reason.
When I was younger, parenthood was something that I might want someday, and there always was a someday. Now, there is no longer a someday. I'm over 40 by a few years. While it's still theoretically possible, it's very unlikely. And if I were to become pregnant now, I'd have to deal with having very few new-mom peers my age. I'd go to PTA meetings with 20-somethings. I'd be the other kids' Grandma's age.
The irony is that I don't really feel old. I feel more mature...in the sense that I'm more of a "grown up" now. In fact, I finally feel qualified to be a parent.
Lots of people don't have children. One of the struggles I have is that I have no models for being a happy, fulfilled adult without children. Most models of adults involve their being defined by their children (when they're my age). If they don't have children then they desperately want them and live a shell of a life for the lack of a baby. In the popular media, the only interesting thing that a woman does is get pregnant. And such hilarity ensues! The goofy klutzy husband/dad-to-be! The struggles with those silly mood swings! But it's all worth it when the perfect bundle of joy arrives amid drama and heartwarming circumstances.
Where are the models of adults who live a good life without offspring and that's it?
In my family, the majority of my contemporary cousins have children. Indeed, those of us who don't are female. Of those cousins who are parents, there are 4 men (100%) and one woman (25%) . Curious. The message of being a strong, independent woman in charge of her fertility certainly sank into three of us. We weren't going to be "trapped" by the "burden" of motherhood.
Well, that was the message I got from my family. The males got the message that they should let the women decide. So, they married (or hooked up with, in one case) women who decided they wanted children. All-righty, sure, if that's what you want honey, the males said, and lo and behold, there were grandchildren.
I can't blame my family entirely. I am not stupid - I did (and do) know what I was doing. However, as I've said in an earlier post, it did take me a while to realize what life is really about.
It's a change. It's an option that is essentially closed for me. That's different. Ever since I reached menarche, the goal has been not to become pregnant. Pregnancy was this time bomb just waiting to explode and ruin my life and everyone's life around me at any time without forewarning, so I needed to defend against it constantly. Now there is nothing to defend against. Before, I could always change my mind. Now, I can't.
It's kinda like when the cold war was over. Who am I, now that the "enemy" is gone and no longer defines me?
This I must discover.
When I was younger, parenthood was something that I might want someday, and there always was a someday. Now, there is no longer a someday. I'm over 40 by a few years. While it's still theoretically possible, it's very unlikely. And if I were to become pregnant now, I'd have to deal with having very few new-mom peers my age. I'd go to PTA meetings with 20-somethings. I'd be the other kids' Grandma's age.
The irony is that I don't really feel old. I feel more mature...in the sense that I'm more of a "grown up" now. In fact, I finally feel qualified to be a parent.
Lots of people don't have children. One of the struggles I have is that I have no models for being a happy, fulfilled adult without children. Most models of adults involve their being defined by their children (when they're my age). If they don't have children then they desperately want them and live a shell of a life for the lack of a baby. In the popular media, the only interesting thing that a woman does is get pregnant. And such hilarity ensues! The goofy klutzy husband/dad-to-be! The struggles with those silly mood swings! But it's all worth it when the perfect bundle of joy arrives amid drama and heartwarming circumstances.
Where are the models of adults who live a good life without offspring and that's it?
In my family, the majority of my contemporary cousins have children. Indeed, those of us who don't are female. Of those cousins who are parents, there are 4 men (100%) and one woman (25%) . Curious. The message of being a strong, independent woman in charge of her fertility certainly sank into three of us. We weren't going to be "trapped" by the "burden" of motherhood.
Well, that was the message I got from my family. The males got the message that they should let the women decide. So, they married (or hooked up with, in one case) women who decided they wanted children. All-righty, sure, if that's what you want honey, the males said, and lo and behold, there were grandchildren.
I can't blame my family entirely. I am not stupid - I did (and do) know what I was doing. However, as I've said in an earlier post, it did take me a while to realize what life is really about.
It's a change. It's an option that is essentially closed for me. That's different. Ever since I reached menarche, the goal has been not to become pregnant. Pregnancy was this time bomb just waiting to explode and ruin my life and everyone's life around me at any time without forewarning, so I needed to defend against it constantly. Now there is nothing to defend against. Before, I could always change my mind. Now, I can't.
It's kinda like when the cold war was over. Who am I, now that the "enemy" is gone and no longer defines me?
This I must discover.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Potpourri
I don't have a pressing issue today. I will write about a few things.
I am sewing a dress in a knit fabric. I'm obsessed with nice knit fabrics lately and I don't know why. I have little experience sewing knits and I find the challenge intriguing. Knits are in, and hot this year. I bought this fabric in New York City in the Fashion District when I was there about 2 weeks ago. It was only $5 a yard and it's got a nice weight and drape to it, however it's not really exotic in appearance. It's navy blue. I also bought some chocolate brown, and a fun abstract print with Asian people on busses in a city-like scene. That fabric is in blues, blacks and reds with a silver accent color adhered on.
I don't know the finer points of fabric manufacturing. It looks like the silver is glued on the surface.
All of this fabric was $5 a yard and it's such superior quality to what you can find here in Kansas City at the chain fabric stores. There are some nice garment fabric stores in town but they naturally charge a lot money for their wares. I can't blame them. In New York, since it's the Fashion DIstrict, there are dozens of little shops jammed to the ceiling with all kinds of fabrics and trims. I guess it's for the students and designers.
I also bought some suiting for a nice pair of pants. That was $12/yard. Still cheap.
I've been puttering with a few projects. I've resumed some work on a hand-quilted piece for my mom - been working on this piece for 7 years now. For God's sake!! I should have it done, but I've lost interest to some extent. It's really pretty - a lap quilt or wall hanging in roses and navy blue with a butterfly motif. I should finish it....that's why I bring it to the quilting bee.
Another project is a simple quilted wall-hanging that I purchased at the BVQG garage sale last year. It's called "Cherries Jubilee" and it's a panel with some attractive country designs including hearts, birds, and of course, cherries. The colors are dark red, black, green and gold-beige. It's simple because it's mainly a panel - just a pieced-on border. I am quilting it on the machine in free-motion for practice, merely outlining the designs to give the look of applique. I will choose some kind of motif for the backgrounds and such. I have been using monofilament thread for an invisible look.
And about once a week, I've been putting together a pair of blocks for the log cabin quilt for my bed. I have 36 blocks now. I need 80.
What was I thinking? A coworker asked me to complete her shift today - she wanted to leave early for some personal commitment. It's only 3-7, sure why not? Well, then, the unit educator said, why don't I come in early for a meeting on the computer system? Now I'm working 1:30 - 7.
I want to be involved. I want to succeed. My ego jumps in and says yes.
But, I really want a break today. Instead I'll work some. I want to go to yoga too, though!! I haven't been in weeks.
In theory, we have past the last freeze date for our zone. I have planted seeds in the garden - the early vegetables such as onions, carrots, radishes, and lettuce. I should plant more today or tomorrow. But I won't put out any warm weather plants for another 2-4 weeks at least. It can freeze late here.
The lawn needed mowing badly- I made a first attempt on Tuesday. It was so tall, the mower could barely handle it - I knew this would be the case, though. The spots where the dogs poop all winter was uber-fertilized and the grass was lush, thick, emerald green, and about 8 inches long. I did a terrible job mowing it just because it was so long. It needs another pass. Thankfully, it's raining today, and I have an excuse for ignoring it.
The fence will be replaced soon. The gutters did get cleaned out.
I feel so behind in my home maintenance work. The project in the basement is in disarray. The house really needs a good cleaning - the bathrooms are due, and the kitty litterbox needs a complete clean out (yes, I've been scooping it). The dogs need washed. The floor needs vacuuming badly.
A messy house makes me feel unsettled. I like being in a cozy, organized place. However, it is only of value to me. Kevin doesn't care about a clean house at all, so I do it mainly for me.
I love me, so I try to take care of myself.
Sewing
I am sewing a dress in a knit fabric. I'm obsessed with nice knit fabrics lately and I don't know why. I have little experience sewing knits and I find the challenge intriguing. Knits are in, and hot this year. I bought this fabric in New York City in the Fashion District when I was there about 2 weeks ago. It was only $5 a yard and it's got a nice weight and drape to it, however it's not really exotic in appearance. It's navy blue. I also bought some chocolate brown, and a fun abstract print with Asian people on busses in a city-like scene. That fabric is in blues, blacks and reds with a silver accent color adhered on.
I don't know the finer points of fabric manufacturing. It looks like the silver is glued on the surface.
All of this fabric was $5 a yard and it's such superior quality to what you can find here in Kansas City at the chain fabric stores. There are some nice garment fabric stores in town but they naturally charge a lot money for their wares. I can't blame them. In New York, since it's the Fashion DIstrict, there are dozens of little shops jammed to the ceiling with all kinds of fabrics and trims. I guess it's for the students and designers.
I also bought some suiting for a nice pair of pants. That was $12/yard. Still cheap.
Quilting
I've been puttering with a few projects. I've resumed some work on a hand-quilted piece for my mom - been working on this piece for 7 years now. For God's sake!! I should have it done, but I've lost interest to some extent. It's really pretty - a lap quilt or wall hanging in roses and navy blue with a butterfly motif. I should finish it....that's why I bring it to the quilting bee.
Another project is a simple quilted wall-hanging that I purchased at the BVQG garage sale last year. It's called "Cherries Jubilee" and it's a panel with some attractive country designs including hearts, birds, and of course, cherries. The colors are dark red, black, green and gold-beige. It's simple because it's mainly a panel - just a pieced-on border. I am quilting it on the machine in free-motion for practice, merely outlining the designs to give the look of applique. I will choose some kind of motif for the backgrounds and such. I have been using monofilament thread for an invisible look.
And about once a week, I've been putting together a pair of blocks for the log cabin quilt for my bed. I have 36 blocks now. I need 80.
Work
What was I thinking? A coworker asked me to complete her shift today - she wanted to leave early for some personal commitment. It's only 3-7, sure why not? Well, then, the unit educator said, why don't I come in early for a meeting on the computer system? Now I'm working 1:30 - 7.
I want to be involved. I want to succeed. My ego jumps in and says yes.
But, I really want a break today. Instead I'll work some. I want to go to yoga too, though!! I haven't been in weeks.
Garden
In theory, we have past the last freeze date for our zone. I have planted seeds in the garden - the early vegetables such as onions, carrots, radishes, and lettuce. I should plant more today or tomorrow. But I won't put out any warm weather plants for another 2-4 weeks at least. It can freeze late here.
The lawn needed mowing badly- I made a first attempt on Tuesday. It was so tall, the mower could barely handle it - I knew this would be the case, though. The spots where the dogs poop all winter was uber-fertilized and the grass was lush, thick, emerald green, and about 8 inches long. I did a terrible job mowing it just because it was so long. It needs another pass. Thankfully, it's raining today, and I have an excuse for ignoring it.
The fence will be replaced soon. The gutters did get cleaned out.
Home
I feel so behind in my home maintenance work. The project in the basement is in disarray. The house really needs a good cleaning - the bathrooms are due, and the kitty litterbox needs a complete clean out (yes, I've been scooping it). The dogs need washed. The floor needs vacuuming badly.
A messy house makes me feel unsettled. I like being in a cozy, organized place. However, it is only of value to me. Kevin doesn't care about a clean house at all, so I do it mainly for me.
I love me, so I try to take care of myself.
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